A Chicago Christmas

Although I only spent 5 years in the city of my birth…I remember it well!  There was a snow on the ground and more in the air, as mom announced that she had retrieved Laughing Santa…and that I must come to see him!

Before me was the little, stuffed, Chief Elf…with his brightly painted face and the crank on his back.  The more that mom turned the crank…the more heartily Old St. Nick laughed.  I watched his antics and reveled in his laughter and wondered how he was able to be so human and yet…seemed not to be so?

There were many, uniquely wrapped, gifts under the 8 foot aluminum Christmas Tree.   Pointing at the shiny artificial  Tannenbaum was a rotating light with a cover of multi-colors that diffused the spectrum of color of the subsequent glow of the beam.

We had returned from our excursion into the city where we saw the new release of Walt Disney’s movie, Lady and the Tramp.  And, the information overload for me, at 3 years old, was tremendous…and ‘visions of sugarplums danced in my head!’

Soon dad and me and mom sat under the Tree as a, mysterious visitor, took our photo…’and that is the rest of the story.’

It was after dark and our outside Christmas lights were lit…and we heard a terrible commotion on the roof of our house in Sauk Village.  It sounded like someone had been on the roof and fell off.  As dad answered the door, I heard him proclaim…’Why come right in!’  There before us…was Santa Claus in all of his red suited, and white bearded, and pipe smoking glory!

Santa laughed, a lesser laugh, than what I had expected…and he wondered if he could use our phone to call Mrs. Claus?  He went on to say that he and the Missus had been involved in a spat when he left and he needed to ensure that there was a home for him to return to…when the Christmas Eve work was completed.  Dad showed him our one phone in the hall…and he began to dial.  We gave him his privacy…he looked like that he needed it.  We heard him say, ‘but…but…but,’ on several occasions, and then he joined us in the living room.  Santa said that he had patched things up and inquired was there anything that he could do for us…before he resumed his journey.  Mom responded that she would like for him to snap a family photo of us under the Christmas Tree.  Santa took her camera and took two pictures…in case the first one did not come out right.

Dad poured the, ‘spritely old elf,’ some eggnog and asked if he wanted something stronger in it…and he smiled with the rosiest of cheeks and said, ‘absolutely!’

As Santa left, on our carport were the reindeer and a bright red glow…from Rudolph’s nose.  Donner and Vixen called out to Santa and asked, ‘where’s ours?’ referring to the spiked eggnog.

So, that is how the Brooks Family Photo…was taken.

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‘Waiting For Godot’

‘Waiting for Godot is a play by Samuel Beckett.’    Wikipedia

”The play is a typical example of the Theatre of the Absurd, and people use the phrase ‘waiting for Godot’ to describe a situation where they are waiting for something to happen, but it probably never will…’    Wikipedia

So, I often say that I am, ‘waiting for Godot!’

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Aren’t we all waiting for many things in our lives…that have not exhibited themselves ever…or at least not on a semi-regular basis We wait for Godot when we seek justice and fair treatment for all peoples…not just the majority or those who are favored by the political class.  We wait patiently for our elected leaders to care more about their constituents than their own interests.  What a treat it would be to witness a concerted focus to address global warming!

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We live in a country that, by all available measurable criteria, live in multiple realities.  There was a famous book, many years ago, that was entitled, Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus.  This book demonstrated the difficulty in men and women communicating with each other and understanding and empathizing with each others point of view.  Today points of view are dictated by the television news network that you receive your news from.

When I was a teenager, men simply understood that they were going to be drafted and be sent to Vietnam.  My cousin, Billy, was drafted.  The only reason that I was not drafted was due to President Carter abolishing the draft before I became of age to go!

We all watched Walter Cronkite on CBS or Huntley and Brinkley on NBC and we basically received the same news.

We wept when President Kennedy was assassinated in Dallas, Texas on November 22, 1963 at 12:30 pm, central standard time.  Somehow, we understood that we would never be the same…and we have not!

We are told by our parents and our elders to work hard and ‘pay-our-dues’ and seek to excel in our careers!  We are assured that if we will apply ourselves…we will climb the ladder of success…and we will be another example of the American Dream!  We are told that anyone can be President of the United States and anyone can be the CEO of a Fortune 500 company…the Horatio Alger story of rags to riches…is ours for the taking….

But, what if the person who is doing the hiring…does not play by the rules?  What if it is not…what you know…but who you know….?

Institutions agonize regarding their low morale.  They engage is studies….and consultants….and large committees…too investigate and conduct in depth research into the quandary of ebbing excitement about the work-place!

The answer is simple….we all wait….much as our Jewish friends wait for the Messiah…or justice and equity and fairness…and recognition of consistent hard work and a passion for the job….and someone who has placed their heart and soul into their career….being recognized for their efforts…rather than being passed over for a friend of the boss!

We are still, ‘Waiting for Godot!’

 

 

Removing Your Worried Mask For A Mask Of Joy

Groundhog Day is here again. Six more weeks of winter sounds correct for our neck of the woods. The snow that fell over a week ago is still here. Yesterday was Game Day. Jennifer and Annelise joined us for a fun afternoon. We inaugurated the Charcuterie Board. Jonathon took a photo of it. MJ loves Game Day.

The Old Man’s mind was stirred by events. January had been an interesting month. A noteworthy beginning for the New Year. The French Quarter caused him to meditate on inclusion rather than exclusion. A Spirit of Acceptance permeated the air. Folks had taken off their Masks in the City of Masks. When we ‘Get Real,’ great things happen. As the Old Man observed the letting down of walls that surround so many, there was a touch of the sublime.

‘It takes a worried man to sing a worried song. I’m worried now, but I won’t be worried long.’ (Worried Man Blues)

‘I removed my Frowning Mask for a Smiling Mask as I no longer feel worried since we arrived in New Orleans,’ Jane said. ‘I did it when I stopped to listen to the beautiful woman singing on the corner,’ Jane continued. ‘The woman’s face revealed she had suffered and overcome the suffering,’ Jane mused. ‘The joy de vie of throughout the Quarter got into my soul,’ Jane said with a little dance. ‘The musicians and parade participants taught me how wonderful the gift of life is,’ Jane laughed heartily.

‘My new friend Jane will sing the next tune,’ the Singer said. ‘Jane has laid down her cross and taken up her crown of joy,’ the Singer continued. ‘The angel brought Jane to us,’ the Singer said quietly. ‘Anxiety had filled her days…now she has peace,’ the Singer said. ‘All of us experience the blows of harshness and often coming from those who do not understand and know not what they do,’ the Singer said. ‘Jesus experienced the same, and our joy in the face of adversity intrigues the angels,’ the Singer sang in her sweet jazz-tinged voice. ‘I don’t know why I have to cry sometimes…I don’t know why I am all alone sometimes…It would be a perfect day, but there is trouble in my way…I don’t know why, but I will know it by and by,’ the Singer sang.

Sweet Family Warms A Cold Night

Last night it was Christmas once again. Dinner with Tara, Mike, Paige, Tyler, Kalynn and Dylan was special. Global Gourmet was a perfect setting for close conversation and sharing of stories. I can not recall an evening I enjoyed more. Their bright, happy faces and wonderful talk were better than the warmth of a fireplace on a bitterly cold night.

So we look to each other for the peace of living. Happiness and joy can be found in the eyes of our loved ones.

The Old Man witnessed people seeking peace in the eyes of others in the French Quarter. Hope overcoming fear. Confidence in the face of anxiety. Arms outstretched for the angel’s grasp. They played music inspired by their life experiences and love. They sang and danced from their souls. The spiritual quality of our daily lives is often lost on our busy minds.

The Old Man is a people watcher. People fascinate him. The Universe is contained within them. Life plays out like a short movie. We are young, and soon we become old. The tropes of success fall away. All that remains is our soul and the spirit that inspires it.

Listening is necessary in Soul Watching. What does a person say when the stage lights are dimmed and the stage curtain is drawn? We perform our roles on the stage of life. We must learn our lines well. So many scenes do not have a redo. We strive to perform the part we have been assigned the first time. We are full of mistakes and flaws. This is what makes us magnificent. Our outer shell is cracked from the buffeting of life. This is how the light gets in…

A Friend In Need

I met a friend in need today at the Woods. When I exited the Subaru, a beautiful black-and-grey pup came up to me as if I were long-lost family. His ribs were showing, and it was 19 degrees. He had worn a collar at one time, but no longer. I called the Visitors Center, and soon two women came with dog food and love. My New Friend found two more New Friends, and they took him to St. Francis Animal Shelter. The Little Guy had trusting eyes. He loved everyone and knew that everyone must love him. Thank you to these wonderful Good Samaritans!

The Old Man reflected on his few minutes with the little accepting dog. Little Dog trusted that the Old Man would solve his problem. He had lost his trusted master and did not know where to find him. Little Dog stood by the Old Man, watching the birds at play and preparing for the chase. The Chase was such fun, and the snow flew under his fast-moving paws. He had been someone’s Good Boy, and he wore that title with pride. ‘I see your wide-brimmed leather Outback Hat,’ Little Dog said. ‘You carry yourself as a man of the world and master of all that you see,’ Little Dog said with some real admiration. ‘The manner in which you pulled up with your Subaru, which is a car designed to travel through the snow, had made me a fan before you emerged, lighting your Swisher Sweet Cigar,’ Little Dog with the visible ribs noted. ‘I am hungry and cold, but then again, no one said life was a bowl of cherries,’ Little Dog said. ‘OH OH, there goes another bird…Now I will run my heart out…the Old Man will solve my dilemma. ‘The Old Man obviously understands how to stay warm and dry on a day such as this when it is so damn cold,’ Little Pup thought. ‘Old Man will come up with the solution that will replace my lost masters,’ Little Dog said with a smile and a tail wag.

‘I don’t know what to do for Little Dog,’ the Old Man thought. ‘He is counting on me, and when I look across the winter horizon, there is no one else to be seen,’ the Old Man continued. ‘Little Pup is frolicking like he has found his new master, and I wonder what the answer is,’ the Old Man thought. ‘Yes…I am with the Little Pup now and will wait with him until you come with the food,’ the Old Man said on his iPhone. ‘Little Pup took off again in pursuit of another bird while the Old Man called out, ” Stay here…lunch is coming!’

In Search Of Light

The day began early after a long night. Some days are that way. The snow is melting slowly in the below-freezing temperatures. More cold weather is coming tomorrow and the weekend. The kind of cold that hurts when it hits your face. A cold that is difficult to shake off when you enter the warmth. When summer arrives, we will reflect that we had a true winter this year.

Snow flurries are forecast for New Orleans on Saturday. It was warm earlier this month. We walked about as if in a dream. A bit like a cruise ship on land… a land cruise. The French Quarter had a Spirit of Light. Colors were brighter. Energy was at its zenith. Hope replaced fear. Dread had no spot to set down roots. Worry came out of the shadows and melted in the bright sun. A woman peddled a tourist cart with two people in the passenger seats. She looked happy, and they were in bliss. The means of conveyance was slow and just right for the French Quarter.

‘I have come seeking the Light,’ the Man In Black said. ‘I have searched my entire life for its meaning, and now I am here to see if this is the answer,’ the Man In Black continued. ‘A Shadow follows me,’ the Man In Black explained. ‘When I watch the political horror show of our country, the Shadow looms large over my shoulder and obscures the Light,’ the Man In Black whispered. ‘Many tell me that such is life with the Looming Shadow following each of us until we die,’ the Man In Black noted. ‘It is said that here in the French Quarter people have learned to live without the Looming Shadow,’ MIB said. ‘The legend, if it be myth or truth, is that the angels play music with the happy folks of the Quarter and sing of their soul connection with Heaven,’ the MIB laughed as the Looming Shadow shook and frowned. ‘As I listen to the music, I feel lighter and free,’ MIB witnessed. ‘Sadness followed me, I wore it like a cloak…” Now I feel joy and peace,’ MIB laughed.

‘I told you of the joy of the French Quarter,’ Jennifer said. ‘MIB, there is hope for you too,’ Jennifer continued. ‘There is light throughout the Quarter as people seek the angel’s participation,’ Jennifer noted. ‘Light comes from a quest for it that begins within our souls,’ Jennifer said. ‘The Looming Cloud will disappear in the light of the angels dancing to the brass band,’ Jennifer laughed. ‘Look at the stairs ascending to Heaven and the happy people dancing on them,’ Jennifer laughed and pointed.


The Looming Shadow looked afraid of itself. LS was accustomed to having his way with the MIB. He had been with him for a long time. Suddenly his services were no longer required as MIB became Man Of Joy or MOJ…

The Wonder

So the Old Man visited the snowy woods. What a sublime sight. A blanket of white under a sky of blue. The quiet of snow is special. The peace of winter is complete. Our New Year is well underway. Can we see what is just beyond our vision? Can we grasp what is beyond our reach? We are born into an earthly plane that is surrounded by spiritual mysticism. We know there is more there than what we can see, feel, and smell. A hint of the other world breaks through to our world from time to time. A bird sings a lovely song that reminds us of what we need to focus on. A deer looks at us with questioning eyes, wondering why we do not see the wonder. We are members of the Club of the Magnificent hidden by the plain.

The Old Man experienced the hidden world in the French Quarter earlier this month. People were connected to the ethereal. I am currently reading Lincoln In The Bardo. It is fascinating in its story of life after death and President Lincoln’s love for his deceased son. We fear what we do not understand, and yet our souls hunger for the world that they instinctively understand and want to lead us to. We seek adventure and color excitement in life. This is what our spirits are accustomed to. This is what our souls remember. Our hearts long for the joy of remembering their home.

The French Quarter musicians touch Heaven with their heartfelt music. There is an aural tone in life that we often do not hear with our fretting about who is President and who is American. Who is being purged by our Authoritarian Government in the name of Christianity? Who shall remain for the blessings of a benevolent God who picks favorites according to our ministers and political leaders? The President decrys the end of Europe due to its welcoming of immigrants who are not white. I had a physician who told me that his colleague said you would not recognize Germany over the past few years. Hitler said the same thing…

Jesus was a dark-skinned Jew from the Middle East. He was not an Anglo-Saxon. The French Quarter understands that they are God’s Children. The feeling of camaraderie in New Orleans was palpable. As the lovely singer sang, we understood that she was our sister. She sang of love and loss of hope and disappointment. The words resonated with all within the sound of her voice…

‘Why would you continue to shoot a man lying lifeless on the street?’ the Preacher asked. ‘Pilate said I find no fault in him,’ the Preacher continued. ‘The throng demanded his crucifixion,’ the Preacher wept.

‘Then music is joyful and makes you want to dance,’ Neva J said. ‘I see my brothers, Dutch and Donald, and my dear mother dancing to it as they listen beyond the Veil,’ Neva J cried. ‘Grandma A told me not to be afraid of death as it is not the big deal we make of it,’ Neva J promised. ‘Grandma A said it is simply going through a door to a magnificent room prepared for your arrival,’ Neva J laughed with joy!

Living In Two Worlds

The Snow is melting. We believe we will reach a degree above freezing. Spring is not here yet. The Old Man remembers New Orleans. There was a different world in the French Quarter. A world of happiness and Joie de vivre. A philosophy of life-affirming rather than denigrating. Hope danced outside the windows of the Hotel Monteleone. The Old Man watched the revelry with keen interest. He was in a different place. Fever Dreams of Dominance and a Master Race were not to be found in the Quarter.

‘It is getting where I am afraid to go outside,’ Jane said. ‘Masked men are on every corner and arbitrarily pull people out of their homes and cars because of the color ot their skin,’ Jane explained. ‘United States citizens carry their papers with them to prove they are legal,’ Jane said with tears in her eyes. ‘People are being killed,’ Jane whispered.

‘Now this is the way to live,’ the Old Man said, with a broad smile and his pork-pie hat on his head. ‘There is a lightness of being in the faces of the people,’ the Old Man continued. ‘Mr. Meyer, the owner of Meyer’s Hat Store, was laughing with customers and enjoying having his picture taken with customers,’ the Old Man laughed. ‘He said he is 102 and still works each day in his store,’ the Old Man smiled. ‘There is a joy in living when you are not afraid,’ the Old Man mused.

‘Franklin Delano Roosevelt told us that the only thing we have to fear is fear itself,’ Chet said. ‘We fought World War II to free Europe from tyranny,’ Chet continued. ‘We took a turn sometime back and chose a road that looked safe,’ Chet observed. ‘We were fearful and saw ghosts lurking around every corner,’ Chet noted. ‘Now we are living with the results of our paranoia,’ Chet said softly.

‘Just listen to the wonderful band at the end of the Carousel Bar,’ Billy B said with a little dance. ‘I have seen shows on television about the French Quarter, but to be here in person is awesome,’ Billy B continued. ‘It is a bit like being in a movie,’ Billy B thought. ‘People come to America for the promise of ‘life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness,’ Billy B noted. ‘President Kennedy said to us, ‘ Ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country,’ Billy B said with his voice cracking. ‘From the Kennedy Administration came the Peace Corps,’ Billy B thought out loud. ‘We were the Nation that thought of others less fortunate than we,’ Billy B said.

‘The lovely singer is singing from her soul,’ Neva J said. ‘She has lived the suffering that she is singing about,’ Neva J continued. ‘See how everyone who passes stops to listen to her song and weeps as the lyrics touch their hearts,’ Neva J observed. ‘Safety, security, and no fear are balanced on a tightrope,’ Neva J proclaimed.

Cold With Snow

Monday begins with below zero temperatures. The snow is pristine. The landscape is covered with a white blanket. Mr. January is on his way to completion. He began with a trip to New Orleans and ended with Cold and Snow. Once January is gone, it is a slippery slope. February is short, and March is spring. Then comes outdoor activity. Easter is early, and Memorial Day sneaks up on us. Before you know it, you light firecrackers. After. On July 4th, it changes from a slippery slope to a tall slide at the beach. Christmas Decorations will be in the stores and commercials on TV at the end of August. And that, my friends, is how the Old Man got old without even noticing.

I watched a clip of a popular English performer getting out of his car with two people assisting him and some difficulty. He, like I, is a member of the Golden Years. Age hits us all. The Old Man made it well in New Orleans. He enjoyed the French Quarter so much that he had an energy jolt. The joy of the area was invigorating. The Lobby of the Hotel Monteleone was lovely and restful. The ancient Grandfathers Clock was a dignified reminder of the Hotel’s grand past.

Snow has brought the Old Man inside. Games each day. I seldom win, but I keep trying. I enjoy playing Uno. Morgan Brooks taught us in Grand Rivers, Kentucky. Since that early December visit, I have been rewatching The Jinx. The show covers the antics of convicted murderer Robert Durst. When describing his privileged upbringing in New York as the scion of one of the wealthiest families in New York City, he mentioned playing Uno as a child.

So we sat in the Sun in the French Quarter. A lovely singer or a brass band could be found on every corner. The rich history of the French Quarter was absorbing. It makes you want to wear your Pork Pie Hat. The Old Man wanted to dance a little and sing. A bit like being in a Turner Classic Movie where there was romance and wonder in every inch.

‘Good afternoon, my name is Charles, and I will be your doorman,’ Charles said. ‘I will take your bags while you check in,’ Charles continued.

‘Where is the music coming from?’ the Old Man thought. ‘A Brass Band was leading a processional down Royal Street at midnight,’ the Old Man said to himself. ‘Everyone is happy and full of joy and peace…no fear or dread,’ the Old Man considered. ‘

Snow Bound and Happy

It snowed all night. The kind of snow that accumulates. It is still snowing. Jennifer is happy in the winter wonderland. She comes from Alabama with a banjo on her knee, according to Old Susanna. Today, we are a land of Snow. New Orleans was a land of snow last January. I saw those photos. The advent of Snow in the French Quarter was a memorable event. I thought about it each day that we were there two weeks ago. So we rejoiced in the unseasonable warm weather. The French Quarter is full of my kind of people. People of the Earth. People with a sense of place and home. Folks who meet you where you are. They are there with you. Joy in the face of adversity. Hope in the teeth of the Brooks were enjoying a goodbye drink in the
Carousel Bar. The Old Man was already planning his return engagement.

Sureal is the description of today’s events. There is the past of snowstorms of Southern Illinois and the present of the French Quarter earlier this month, and their remembrance of last January’s historic event. The Doorman at the Hotel Monteleone told us to keep the cold weather ‘Up There.’ He laughed at my term for Southern Illinois as if I were attempting to distinguish Illinois as a southern state. He had a scarf around his neck, ear muffs, and gloves. He noted with aplomb that when it gets 60 in the French Quarter, it is cold.

The National Guard eyed us suspiciously as they walked through the Lobby of the Hotel Monteleone each day. They carried the air of authority with them. We, tourists, wondered what was up? How were we a danger to the Republic on our Holiday? Certainly, the poor people of the French Quarter were not a danger to anyone. Happy, singing, and playing their instruments, they were focused on enjoying the life God had given them. The Homeless were no danger in their abject poverty. They were hungry.

So here we are in the Snowstorm of 2026. No longer in New Orleans for now, but thinking about it. It is mystical to have been thinking about the historic snowstorm of the French Quarter in 2025 and return to Southern Illinois to a historic snowstorm. Perhaps we are traveling the groove of Times Phonograph Vinyl Record. What a mysterious journey life is.

I felt at home in the French Quarter. I knew I had been there before. The rhythms of the jazz music were familiar. The genuine heartfelt smiles and greetings were home. The bartender who told me that he knew we were good people, I felt that I had met before. He was family. How to explain such a magical, mysterious journey?

Neva J was a dedicated Christian, but she knew Edgar Cayce was on to something. She saw visions and lights that could not be explained. Neva J had an innate sense of people that I have as well. Years ago I knew that a minister was a thief. Many said that God had told them he was to be our minister, but I demurred. It is a trepidation and excitement to hear from across the Veil.

Cold Snow and Hot Chocolate

The following is a flash fiction story. Cold Snow and Hot Chocolate The snow fell as the man poured hot chocolate down his grateful throat. And there…

Cold Snow and Hot Chocolate

French Quarter Dreams

So the event of the weekend is clear. Snowapocalypse is here. It is starting slow, but the weather folks tell us not to despair, as it will increase. We Southern Illinois people get excited about snow. We see a little in winter, not a lot. When I was a child, it snowed more. At least that is my misty memory. We constructed large snowmen and had enough raw product to do so. The snow was plowed into sturdy walls on each side of the path to school, and we walked between them unseen from outside the fortress. I had snow boots with buckles that I wore each day. When I had those boots on, I was invincible to the effects of the white powder. I walked with the confidence of the young on snowy and icy paths. Falling down was part of the fun.

Snow removal belonged to a snow shovel. My uncle died shoveling snow. Nevertheless, the young and young at heart shoveled as a rite of life in the suburbs. Snow Days were few and far between in the ’60s. We bundled up and snapped our ear flaps, which were held on top of our hats, under our chins. Mittens were prevalent. Snow was part of winter, and we were tough.

The Old Man’s eyes look back in time to the French Quarter less than two weeks ago. Warm and no snow. The Fine Art Photographer spoke of the unprecedented Snow in New Orleans last January. He had some wonderful photos. We had no need for a sweater or jacket. We were warm with mirth and laughter. Much to see and more to do. Once or twice, it was nearly hot. Then there were the photos of what the French Quarter looked like under the 100-year snow.

‘So it is snowing in the French Quarter, and we are a part of the historic event,’ the Old Man said. ‘Bourbon Street is covered with a white blanket,’ the Old Man continued. ‘The doorman was sweeping the snow away this morning from the front of the Hotel Monteleone,’ the Old man noted. ‘People are laughing and dancing in the snow,’ the Old man laughed. ‘A jazz band marched down Royal Street playing Santa Claus Is Coming To Town,’ the Old Man grinned.

‘Wakey Wakey,’ MJ called out. ‘It is snowing,’ MJ said with joy. ‘I have baked chocolate chip cookies,’ MJ laughed. ‘Hurry before they are all gone,’ MJ danced on one foot and then the other.

‘Perhaps we can get some cookies at the Carousel Bar with our drinks,’ the Old Man suggested. ‘I think you must be referring to last January when the French Quarter received a historic snow,’ the Old Man suggested as he munched a chocolate cookie.

‘We are home, and we are receiving a historic snow, Aaron and Jonathon said in unison. ‘New Orleans was nearly two weeks ago,’ they said.